Hello Elder ナントイウ*,
Thank you for the wishes, but 申し訳ないですが、but I won’t come to your church on Sunday. I thought about giving the excuse that I’m only in Matsue for a short time now and I’m careful about how I spend my last few months considering I like to fill my schedule. This is true, and it would also give clue to how I prioritize any relationship with your church. However, this is not the strongest way to say no. Perhaps living in Japan has inculcated within me a sense to preserve harmony, as you probably witness dealing with Japanese people on a daily basis. But I’m American, and you’re American and we should be able to speak straightforward. It’s just hard because you’re such a nice guy and you’re really great people. And the concept of “sunshine and rainbows” is objectively a positive notion. And maybe it’s misleading when I said that your book is true. I don’t take that back. But when I said it, I didn’t mean that other books are false. I’ve come to the conclusion that I believe there are many truths in the world; mutual exclusivity is the falsehood. So it’s true that “sunshine and rainbows” are good for some but for me, honestly “sunshine and rainbows” seems like the equivalent of drinking purple-flavored juice. I much prefer the taste of wine. So it comes down to tastes. The same flavor can be great for some and unappealing for others… So I’m aware that this was not so straightforward, but I guess this part of my personality fits in with Japan. I just wanted to let you know I put some thought into this and didn’t just brush it aside.
Good luck with the rest of your journey. I hope you find the right people who genuinely love sunshine and rainbows.
*name changed to protect identity